Cycle 3

It's supposed to be my second PLW meeting for the third cycle. I missed it again since I had to be with my family.

I guess I'm also scared to attend PLW again because I think it's jinx. I now associate it with the devil's attacks.

The first two attacks had something to do with my physical health last year. Now I haven't started attending, and I'm already being attacked. Mental and emotional attacks. It's that bad.

PLW Coordinator

As of November 15, I have officially said yes to God's anointing to be a PLW Coordinator for my third cycle next year. And if this will be the cause of another rift, that means that the friendship is not worth salvaging a whit. So help me, God!

As a PLW Coordinator, my goal should be to have a perfect attendance to serve as a role model to others. I entrust my health to You, my Lord.

Desert Day Journey

One of the sweetest messages I received over the weekend: "You were a grace for us in our journey. Thank You! God bless." :D

A message from my PLW guides after our Desert Day. I was deeply moved!

Still not sure if it is the desire of my heart to be a future guide. It just piques my interest. I learned that there will be a year-long (or one and a half years) training for future guides. Yikes! 

Before thinking of being a guide, I need to have my PLW take three by January. Not even sure if my schedule will even allow that to happen.

The desire of my heart is to preach and teach. Is the offer still good next month? Have to cope with a lot of changes in the community again, so help me, God!

Availability More Than Ability

PLW 211: "Only the available can be servants of God."

I learned this from my second and hopefully last Catholic charismatic community. Availability is more important than ability.

All through my academic life, I tried to hone my abilities, capabilities, talents and latent gifts. Only to find out after graduation that availability is far more important.

I'm just grateful that I made myself available to God last 2004, and I have been serving him in various ministries and outreach projects ever since.

Jesus on the Cross

PLW 210: "Love reached its (highest) zenith on the cross... Jesus chases away my dark clouds. Jesus takes out and sweeps away all the rubbish that I don't like. Jesus scrapes away the flaking layers of my personality."

What are you doing in exchange of that immeasurable and unfathomable love? I'm "doing the hard stuff afraid," "walking on waters," going out of my comfort zones, listening to His gentle whispers and striving to say "yes" to Him. :D

Missing PLW

I missed PLW again... for the same reason. Twice in a month. This is getting bad. The paranoid and pessimistic side of me is even thinking of the worst-case scenario. I might get the primary complex (it's called with a different name for adults) of the children I'm serving in one of my ministries. Which reminds me to start taking antibiotics for seven days to combat this persistent cough. I trust that God won't allow me to get sick big time. This is just a matter of bad weather and stress. Toss in psychosomatic disorder in the equation. A weak body is what I get. Specifically a weak immune system.

After my fourth upper CG meeting in Harbour Square, I was tempted to push my tired and sick body to attend PLW. My CG Heads advised me to rest again. The obedient side of me happily obliged. But the obstinate side of me wanted to get down the LRT station to find my way to EDSA and transfer to the MRT station. I even contemplated on alighting in Roosevelt Station when I was already in Blumentritt. Too bad I didn't think about that earlier. Hahaha! Pasaway talaga!

I guess I know why God asked me to rest again. He wanted me to avoid the distraction I saw at the Feast. A new guy from the community made me smile today. Thank God for sending me inspirations to write more articles and to publish books in the future.